………….So my fiance was such a jerk 3 weeks ago, and for the past 3 weeks I have been so mad at him. I don’t want to talk to him or see him. Any request from him, no matter how good, its disgusting to me. If I was smiling then he just shows up, my faced just frowned on this own. Its like the nerves on my face now knew what to do as soon as I laid eyes on him. It got to a point where my face was now painful from the frowning and when I later tried to smile or laugh it would refuse and it would take so much effort to change the state of my face.
You know the myth, or maybe its true, that angry people get more wrinkles when they age and die earlier than the happy ones. I all of a sudden found myself thinking of that myth and realised I was cutting my life span by being angry and refusing to let go. I had given him such a hard time for the past 3 weeks but I realised I had also given myself a worse time because it was taking so much energy from me to stay angry. My face was refusing to frown but I was forcing it. I can imagine the strain my veins and nerves were going through!! They were refusing to be angry but wanted joy. I could also feel the joy wanting to spring out of me but I was forcing it down because according to me it was my time and right to be angry.
Out of my anger I had gotten some satisfaction but also I had lost a lot. I suppressed the times I could have been happy, I had lost moments that could have been special to me. The beauty of joy is it overrides any other negative feeeling you might have. And in the most unlikely situations it brings out the best. Joy gives you peace when everyone else expects you to crumble down. So why do we choose the opposite of joy? Always remember when you are not happy it kills you mostly not the next person. So do away with the negative energy and let the joy out!!!
I’m not yet talking to my fiance fully but I’m so full of joy and have decided to grab other moments!!!!…..